If you wrote your testimony as a product testimonial, you may have been honest enough to include some disappointments with God. What do you do if you have partial or completely negative experiences with God? What good is a testimony like that? You might be surprised how God can use that.
Everyone is disappointed with God in one way or another. Unanswered prayers top the list, or at least prayers that weren’t answered the way we wanted. Live events that leave us asking “Why?” are also culprits that shake our faith in God at a deep level. And there are matters of timing (God can seem so slow to us), trust (God disappointed me in the past, how can I trust Him now?), and any number of other issues that come up.
First, let me say if you are disappointed in God, you are a normal, thinking, feeling individual. It’s okay. God can handle your doubts and fears. You’ve taken the first and biggest step by admitting your disappointment in God.
Whatever negative reviews you may have written about God, however huge or slight they may seem, take them to God right now. Offer it to Him as a wounded sacrifice. Give it to Him and ask Him to heal your heart so He can reveal Himself to you fully. God doesn’t have to explain Himself because He’s God. But He wants to heal your heart. Only a healed heart can receive all God has for you.
When we live with disappointment in God, we are living with a grudge. We are, in a sense, putting ourselves above God to judge His motives and actions. This is the sin of pride. When His ways don’t live up to what we expect, we hold it against Him and refuse to forgive Him because we don’t understand His ways. I know because I used to feel that way.
Take time to reconsider how you would write your testimony as a product testimonial. Be honest about any negative reviews you would give God. Then take those issues to God and surrender them to Him. Ask His forgiveness and healing. Ask Him to remove any shadows of darkness that have crept into your heart because of your issue with Him. Today is a good day to be set free. Give it to God and experience the freedom Christ offers.
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed (Psalm 34:18, NLT).